Happy New Year! It’s been a while since I posted on this blog, but I really wanted to give myself a real break over the holidays. Over the break, I spent a lot of time with family and friends (who are in my bubble), and taking in my last high school winter break. That sounds crazy to me. It seems way way too soon to be nearing the end of my high school experience! A few of my favorite things I did over break were going to see holiday lights, doing yoga and spin at home, going on long walks with my mom and my dog, and cooking! For Christmas, I made a dairy-free Bûche de Noël (Yule Log)! My sister and I are lactose intolerant, so I made a thin chocolate sheet cake, rolled it up to cool so it kept its shape, filled it with vegan vanilla ice cream, then rolled it up like a cinnoman roll! When it was all rolled up, I iced it with chocolate frosting and traced lines in it to look like a log. I even put a marshmallow on the side to mimic a stump, and rolled cranberries in sugar to garnish!
With everything I was doing over break, I also found time to do some Independent Study work. My main focus was on analyzing my second survey, which I had put off, and going through the responses from my third survey (yes, I manually went through all 170 responses). Analyzing the data from the second survey was pretty simple since I followed the layout from my first survey, but my third one wasn’t so straight forward. I had to read every individual response from that survey in the tiny font of the spreadsheet. It was a task, but I did it! I honestly really enjoyed reading the responses. The most frequently occurring response from “What do you wish parents would know about what high school students are going through right now (academically, socially, emotionally, etc.)?” was simply “we’re trying”. This one hit home. I am blessed with very understanding parents who let me do my own thing, but I know that they’re there if I need anything, but I still felt it. A lot of times, I feel overwhelmed with the work presented and the concepts that are thrown at us to learn. Sometimes, I’m too mentally exhausted to do the work well, or even at all. I’ve learned that it’s best to just communicate this to your teachers, and hope that they understand that we’re all going through stuff, especially right now. Over the semester, I contacted my AP Stat teacher verbalizing how I was feeling beat down since I was doing all the work (and more), but wasn’t grasping the material well enough. She was more than understanding and worked with me to earn points back. I know not every teacher will be like this, but because of how positively my attempts at communication were met, I will absolutely try it again! If I have learned anything in high school, it’s that your teachers are human too, and everyone is at different places, academically, emotionally, and mentally. Trying to hide it does nothing to help, but if you talk to your teachers about it, at least you made an effort to intervene and alleviate some stress.
I’m not too sure what this week holds. I may present, I may not. My goal is to at least try to be able to present at the January Faculty meeting, but I don’t want to stretch myself thin and do a poor job. I want these presentations to be an accurate reflection of the hard, (somewhat) organized work that I have poured my heart and soul into over this past semester.
“You can do anything but not everything.” -David Allen